Life

It moves it flows, it changes and with every change people must adjust well when one needs change they seek it and the other is kinda left in the old vision in the old times in the dream of the past. As if reality hasn't caught up to them as if the present hasn't hit yet like a bomb. Its just falling on them. I think for someone to move on like that it needs to be in necessity as if there is no other option which means I need to stop talking to said person and start ignoring and maybe they'll get it and start moving forward without looking back too much.

Agnostic

I refuse to become an atheist because lets face it who knows for sure? Nobody know for sure that god exists so why should I blind myself from the world by putting myself under a cloak of an idea of god? The idea that something like that could be in existence leads to the ideas of no choice or fate and destiny none of which is possible if god doesn't exist. The almighty power the power to control and kill and protect. sheesh even this sounds so messed up and fake and unreal how could everyone on this earth believe all of that its like a fairy tale.
But then again I can't outright say that there couldn't possibly be an atheist because there could be a muted power that no one knows about. That doesn't take part in the fairy tale of fate and does not over use the powers which only he can have.

Guess

I guess theres no getting over it the pain will always be nestled in the back corner of your mind forever and ever. No matter the hurt no matter how good life gets for you it apparantly doesn't matter the pain will fade but only because you learn to ignore it. Not because it hurts any less. Love is a fickle thing that always seems to want to slip away. I guess people never learn that a romantic beginning isn't enough. I guess you'll never truly know how another feels until its over until your guesses at the true thoughts and motives are as good as its going to get but nothing can keep the pain away or dull it any more than the confidence of the one that carries it.

Not Surprised

why must I be disappointed again and again. Who choses whats done to me and not. I swear if its fate it can have it my life my soul everything take me away allow my mind to be tricked into believing that everything is happy. My life is perfect when perfection is fake as is happiness and love. I think and believe I am in love but disappointment is right around the corner as is another tragic tale of heart break and death. Death of something that lets face it never truly existed....love.

Change

What I have to realize or what all people have to realize is that change is a scary and beautiful thing it hurts but then everything gets better. During the hurt and the pain you learn what you did wrong what could have been done to stop the inevitable happening of change but since its happened there is no way and no reason to dwell on what happened cause its over. Its time for things to move on and do what life does best change. As much as we wish it we could only come to this realization after the change has happened while we are still hanging on to the last hope that things can return and go back to the way things were the first time around. But no one can turn back time it just doesn't work that way.

I wish

I wish I could speak always of things that make other people happy. That I could make other people happy at all times. But I also understand that happiness always isn't true happiness then its just contentment. So why must we live through the hurt and the hate when happiness is just a myth that comes and goes. Its never truly there. Never actually stays its just a ghost... like hope. Thats always a dream of a thing waiting there pretending that it actually exist but never truly shows itself to you only disappears just before you think you have it. You realize the fun and the closest thing you'd ever get to happiness was in the reach to get it. The journey to the castle, the life that you once had.

Scared

I know this is odd. But I'm terrified that I'm doing everything wrong, that I won't be able to slow myself down that my life has whipped out of control and no I'm not on any drugs. But I think that would make it ten hundred times worse. I'm very proud to tell you that I have never done any sort of drugs in my entire life. But this is much worse more like the feeling I get whenever I touch him is basically all I want is more! A lot more and I need to slow down cause I also want to be loved.