Scared

I know this is odd. But I'm terrified that I'm doing everything wrong, that I won't be able to slow myself down that my life has whipped out of control and no I'm not on any drugs. But I think that would make it ten hundred times worse. I'm very proud to tell you that I have never done any sort of drugs in my entire life. But this is much worse more like the feeling I get whenever I touch him is basically all I want is more! A lot more and I need to slow down cause I also want to be loved.